First Post Jitters
*Let me preface this by saying that I wrote this post weeks ago. On July 2, 2018 specifically. When I sat down to write this I didn't have a place to share it. But the feelings are so real and so raw that I knew I needed to document them. Happy reading!
July 2, 2018
Today’s the day- I’m committing to posting my first piece of content on Instagram today. Yay! So exciting!
But what I’ve also been mildly overcome with a case of the jitters. I’m nervous, hesitant, and second guessing it all. I’m in the midst of an internal dialogue that goes something like this,
Anna, you haven’t told anyone that this was your goal for the day. There’s no one to hold you accountable if you don’t do it.
But I’LL know that I chickened out for no other reason than I felt uncomfy…
It’s such a huge step. It marks the beginning of your blogging journey. Once you start you can’t stop. You can’t be that person that starts a blog for 3 weeks and then it falls off the face of the earth.
Can you sense my fear? My self-doubt? The little, not-so-quiet voice that is telling me I can’t do it?
But I’m going to put on my big girl pants, take a deep breath, set an alarm on my phone, and just do it. And yes, I’m terrified! The voice inside my head isn’t wrong. I don’t want to be that blogger that isn’t committed, that gets overwhelmed and stops posting after a matter of weeks. It’s all valid. But what I keep coming back to is that it isn’t a valid reason to not start.
So while I haven’t told anyone that I’m posting on IG today, I’ve written this blog post and if you didn’t notice, I dated the top of the page. If I have to change that date at the top, I’ll feel so much guilt and that’s NOT something I want for myself.
If my blog was live, I would post this up there so all of you could hold me accountable. But at the end of the day, accountability isn’t my true motivation for writing this post. I’m writing this so everyone can understand that this journey can be full of self-doubt and fear. But I'll power through.....
If you're curious, I shared my first Instagram post a few hours after I wrote this. I got such a rush and was so proud!!!
Can you relate? Does this sound familiar? If so, tell me more in the comments!!